oh my god. i felt real terrible.
nobody know how short a person's life can be.
its just a line separating the world of live and death.
I totally got no idea why i'm feeling so shit though i dun even know who the guy is.

okay i shall start from the very top. if not my feeling would never be understoood.
before i turn in last night, jie rushed out in a erric manner. i was wondering what's wrong.
she dashed out telling me that DERICK has met an ancident.
she thought that it was a joke at the beginning. and said clearly that it would really be a terrible joke if it was true.
i thought nothing would be wrong. so i turn it.
1.36am. my room light was switched on. my sis shoke my leg. i woke up.

derick was dead.

yeah right. that was what happen. derick wasnt a guy i knew. but he's someone that cared lots for my sister. he doted my sister so much like a real sister. that my sis always mention him in front of me. and everything he has doned for my sis. so somehow, i'm touched by him too, and, has a good image about him.

but just this very very moment, my sis told me he's dead. he met an ancident. he was the driver, with 4 others passengers in his car. he banged onto something and dashed up onto the pathment i guess. I've yet to read the newspaper. But i've already see the front page.

this incident cause me hard to get into my sleep. the feeling is terrible. i just hate it. i cant stop myself from thinking what if this happen to people around me? how am i suppose to accept when people just leave me like this? i cant stop myself from thinking about it.. really could not.

even after i've reached school. this incident just haunt me all the way. i cant stop imagining if one day i received a call and he told me you had just leave me.

i really really cannot accept it. it was mock exam. i stared the whole session. I STARED. yes i do. i'm so afraid. i'm so afraid one day i wouldnt be able to see you again. i'm just so afraid that anybody would be like derick. anyone would just leave me like that. i dun want. i realluy dun. i start to feel how important people is around me. i know i should yuckish. but that's how i really feel.

cherish things and people around you. you have to!

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