i realise i hated my blog
i went to read
the past blog
and i realise
i hate it!
alot!
i hate the blog on
half of july
august
september
october
novmember
and part of dec!
i hate it!!!!!!!!!!
really hate it!!!
why it makes me cry!
i hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

"why do u leave me like that"

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will u ever appear
will u ever appear
out side my house corridor again?
or the playground
that we hanged out that night?
will i ever see u
surprisingly one dae?

i am loosing the touch
loosing the feeling
thinking every hour
every minute
every second

*never thought that
that will be the
last hug
last kisses
[9/12/2005]
on the windy night
with the breeze
with the water
wonderful atmosphere
nth get into my mind that night
but only you*

i went there again
everything seems to appear again
in front of me
but is already the soundless clip
onli actions
and words
but i could hear nth

everydae i walk out
alone
in the lonely night
with the cries
the laughters

everything seems to be leaving
everything
and left me with ur shadow
will u ever appear?
giving me a surprise?
i hope so
although i doubt so

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well....
now den i realise
that i have been hanging out
late in the night
past few days
i was hanging out with zhen
we were always at the
playground
i think that the place
she love to go
with memories..
lots and lots
luckily i dun hv it

yesterdae we went to fetch kelly
we gave her a surprise!
well
i mean lian wei..
haha
but is my idea ok????
haha
and i feel that
my acting skill
has improve
hahahaha
make her believe me..
maybe sometimes it is
better
nt to believe me huh?
haha

me and zhen
couldnt hold our tears
when we saw them hugging
hahahhaa
i think linh miss him pretty lots eh?
i was there imagine
if i am linh
if i come back
omg..
i will hug him and cry man!
hahaha
think too much eh?
i will nv fly overseasss
haha

for xin leh
due to the tears
she became emotional
too
haha..
we walk here walk there
and in the end we went to woodlands
on the bus journey
we have our mp3
hanged on our ears
emotional...
tsk tsk tsk

looking out at the window
making me remember
the bus!
the bus frm compass point
to look for my sis
with her dyed golden hair
haha

nice nice??
haha...

me and zhen
went to the reservoir
i love there
nt north point there
so no much memories
but i think that reservior
is zhen's memories
cause she asked to go there
and i jumped like hell
sang like hell
shouted like hell
cause is dark
and i dun think anyone will notice us

there's alot of mosquitoe bites too
and i think
spider websss
haha

over there remind me of 5 months ago
sitting on
the stone
i love the stone
with the breeze
nice nice
nice place to chat
maybe next time
can bring u there eh?
haha

we went to the playground
in the night again
tis time with linh
the listener
i started my story
my story dun seems to be very touching
haha
but more towards dramatic
haha
15 minutes i ended my story

zhen's turn
sob sob
linh almost cry out
haha!
me and zhen cant comfort each other
left linh
she comforted both of us
haha..
nt easy for her eh??

without any notice
we chat till 1 am
wa...
at the playground
three ladies eh??
haha

soon ltr
the three of us were filled
with laughters

ltr they coming over
to play with my hair...
hahahhaha
jkjk
but is help me
hope it will be nice

kk
going meet linh soon le
cya!!!!!!!!

"better be sad than to regret"

i am so bored now...
sian sian sian

[are u still the one?]

i am waiting
waiting and waiting
linh will be coming back in 2 days time
she given lots of advice yesterdae
=))

welllllllllllllll
haha

i hope to turn my time back to
the starting of sec2
i dun wanna go sec 3
i dun feel tt sec 3 is fun..
si@n...

everything is perfect is sec 2
everything
everything


once god given u something
he will take away something

when he take away somthing
he will igive u something

"positive thinking=))"

i think wo zhen de xiang kai le bar
although i know it is very difficult
but let time goes by bar

although there is regrets
but even regrets
doesnt help anything
but just wanna
sae a big sry to him
because of friends
i neglected him
i regreted that
i'm sry

i am really very happy that
there were wonderful memories
the joking couples
play ard
fight ard
quarrel ard
the water
and wallet fight is
wad i remember the most
haha!
the pigs!
nv been forgotten!
haha
like she sae
i should hv expected
yeah i agree
i believe there is a start
there will be a end
just let the river flow
and soon or ltr
it will flow to an end

i really have a wonderful talk with her yesterdae
no wonder she is my senior =))
haha
she tok me through
make me feel strong
no matter how weak i am inside
i will turn strong
=))
i am captain
be strong
i hope
haha

but
would u rather choose a pretty one?
or a devoted one?
to ur character one?
must think probably
nt all u like can be together

but now i believe there is no such things
as
to ur character
like she sae
i know my expectation now
haha
shld be i hope

there are so much more things
i got to cope next year
maybe it is really
nt time for me to start tis
when since
i am someone that
couldnt put down so easily

maybe if is next year
i might found it
even harder to accept

new life!
new shimin!
btw
MerrY chRistMas!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i realise that it is difficult
very very difficult
but no matter how difficult
i will try to overcome it =))
shimin is always shimin =))

now aday i have been hanging out
with yew zhen at night
late in the night
chit chatting
haha..
chat lots and lots
the brezze is nice

i bought my sch shoes too
at bata

i went out with my softball friends too=)0
we went bowling yesterdae
it is fun
i realise i throw the ball so hard
that they were laughing at me!
haha
they feel that i am throwing my anger out
welll....
haha
bowling is a good sports
haha
we went to val house ltr on
with chicken rice and macdonald=))
we watch movie
the fog...
shilka wanted to lend me
the ghost story
wad emily rose
but i dun feel like borrowing it anymore
i dun wanna watch alone
haha
somemore they sae very chim
haha

i also hang with with grace
we went out at night
to yi hao house
and roller blading=))
fun fun

i aso went out with xin and zhen
we went to bugis
shop shop
buy buy
haahaa

time is nt like last time
and i feel tt gals feeling is always right
nt being to sensitive
i hope
`love with no regrets
there will sure be plenty of memories
and like zhen sae
memories can nv be forgotten
it will always remain there

jay chou's
hei she mao yi
last sentence
"jie rang hui yi yong yuan liu at na li"

hope wad lian wei said is true
be true to kelly
dun let her sad!!!
haha

i have a story to tell u guys..

there was once a farmer
he live in an original live
farming for food..
a simple live

one dae...
he found a injuried bird in his yard
a bird covered with silver feather
so beautiful
it is the most beautiful bird he have ever seen
so he brought the silver bird home
and helped him with its wound

the silver bird loved the farmer
it sang every day for the farmer
and accompany the farmer
whereever he went
the silver bird's voice were
sweet and nice
the farmer had spend
his most happy days in his life
with this silver bird
he had never been so happy before

one day...
his neighbour
told him
he saw a golden bird at the mountain
it was 100 times more beautiful
den the silver bird
and its voice
was 1000 times more sweet and beautiful
den the silver bird
from that day on
the farmer has been thinking of the golden bird
his mind was all the golden bird
he was no long interested in the silver bird

soon...
the silver bird recovered
it fly to the farmer
who was thinking of the golden bird
and sang for him
but the farmer replied with a sigh
no matter how well u sing
no matter how beautiful ur feather are
u cant be compared to the golden bird
it sadden the silver bird
so silver bird decide to sing
the last song for the farmer
before leaving
and fly ard the farmer head 3 rounds
representing good bye
and flew off

but this time
as the farmer look
the silver bird under the sun ray
look like the golden bird!
his feather become gold

now...
then the farmer realise
the golden bird that is in his mind all the while
has always been with him
all by his side
but he had never realise it
when he realised it
it was already too late
the bird has flew off
he knew that he had nv cherish the silver bird
and the farmer live with regrets

dun live with regrets
=))
shimin

i have nv been happy
these few days
sobbing the whole dae
i must get use to the life
without him
without him by my side
it is hard
but i will try..
i getting slimmer
i am happy abt tt =))
haha
i realise i gt alot of friends tt care for me
but nth seems to replace
the ach in my heart
memories and images is everywhere
everywhere i go
i get to see the soundless clip
the clip where we were together
laughing
chit chatting
it is really hurting
lots of regrets
regrets of quarrelling
nv expect it to end so early
but the fact has shown everything
we were still friends =))
i will treat him as my very best frien
like the time
before we together
it is better den getting into a relationship
it hurts me alot
but this hurts will
fade off as time comes by
we were really friends
and i hope
we can be really very very good friend
=))
wish him all the best
and happy forever =))

to all the couples
cherish everything
and everyone
expecially the person u love
in front of u
dun leave with regrets
and cherish the happy time

true love doesnt have an ending

well...
todae..
ok ok lor
well..
early in the morning..
something ergued me..
haha..
and i went for a morning jog
at abt 9 to 10++
haha
siao right?
when i tell weiixiin
she was like keep asking
wad da ji do i hv..
haha..
the da ji is that
i hv the feeling of i am getting fatter
and fatter now aday..
hahass
sooo...
the jog is tiring...
ard northbrooks..
yishun park area
wooo
finish the jog
feel refreshing
but dun feel any slimming
hahass
i ate alot again todae
probably that the reason..
haha
ermmmm..
chat alot with xin todae
chat chat chat
ltr.. dinner
everything
we went chong bang
i mean with my family
to buy remote control for my dvd player
which is spoiled
we den went orchard
to fetch my sis..
went plazza sin to fetch kai xin first
at first adding kai xin..
the car is already full
when my bro
will be moving in front to sit with my mother
and..
in the end...
haiz..
kai xin sae she is bringing another frien
wad will happen next???
i will be sitting on my sis leg
wad the..
i am realli pussed off at tt time
i know u guys might think i am
ermm..
rather xiao qi??
but it is rather malllooo
to sit on my sis leg
and my head hitting the roof top
and wad??
i am a 14 yrs old gal
and the journey
was frm orchard back to yishun
u will nv know how numb
my leg would be
although i am
sitting on my sis leg..
and she was there complain complain
saying she wan to go to the toilet
and i am sitting on her bladder
den ask her sit on me den..
and my father was there scolding
saying me..
of course...
he was sitting in the front of the car
alone..
so comfortable...
sian..
maybe i shldnt go at the first place
wad realli sadden me is i need someone to tok to
but there is no one...
everyone was busy
whenever i am sad...
kelly is here
but she is nt here tis time
so..
didnt sms xin
cause she probably
has her phone in silent mood
as i called her yesterdae
but she didnt reply
haha
sooo...
in the end
i tok to my mother
nt bad either
hahas...
but next time i going to
CALL xin
instead of sms..
haha..
i think she wouldnt mind larh hor??
haha
so now i reach home
with head ach
and i'm going to slp..
nite ntie
sweet dreamsss

well...
todae..
ok ok lor
well..
early in the morning..
something ergued me..
haha..
and i went for a morning jog
at abt 9 to 10++
haha
siao right?
when i tell weiixiin
she was like keep asking
wad da ji do i hv..
haha..
the da ji is that
i hv the feeling of i am getting fatter
and fatter now aday..
hahass
sooo...
the jog is tiring...
ard northbrooks..
yishun park area
wooo
finish the jog
feel refreshing
but dun feel any slimming
hahass
i ate alot again todae
probably that the reason..
haha
ermmmm..
chat alot with xin todae
chat chat chat
ltr.. dinner
everything
we went chong bang
i mean with my family
to buy remote control for my dvd player
which is spoiled
we den went orchard
to fetch my sis..
went plazza sin to fetch kai xin first
at first adding kai xin..
the car is already full
when my bro
will be moving in front to sit with my mother
and..
in the end...
haiz..
kai xin sae she is bringing another frien
wad will happen next???
i will be sitting on my sis leg
wad the..
i am realli pussed off at tt time
i know u guys might think i am
ermm..
rather xiao qi??
but it is rather malllooo
to sit on my sis leg
and my head hitting the roof top
and wad??
i am a 14 yrs old gal
and the journey
was frm orchard back to yishun
u will nv know how numb
my leg would be
although i am
sitting on my sis leg..
and she was there complain complain
saying she wan to go to the toilet
and i am sitting on her bladder
den ask her sit on me den..
and my father was there scolding
saying me..
of course...
he was sitting in the front of the car
alone..
so comfortable...
sian..
maybe i shldnt go at the first place
wad realli sadden me is i need someone to tok to
but there is no one...
everyone was busy
whenever i am sad...
kelly is here
but she is nt here tis time
so..
didnt sms xin
cause she probably
has her phone in silent mood
as i called her yesterdae
but she didnt reply
haha
sooo...
in the end
i tok to my mother
nt bad either
hahas...
but next time i going to
CALL xin
instead of sms..
haha..
i think she wouldnt mind larh hor??
haha
so now i reach home
with head ach
and i'm going to slp..
nite ntie
sweet dreamsss

WELLLLL
I DUN FIND IT FUNNY
XP!!!

11.09PM
8 DECEMBER

PISSED OFF
WITH HER
FREAK

hehe...
i dunno wad happen
to my blog
well..
like the date is nt correct
haha...
nvm larh
haha
hmmm...
i am so bored now...
so come here and blog..
yesterdae i hv been thinking whole night
shld i cut my hair todae?
and xin has decide to acc me
well..
but i think think
i nt going to cut todae
cause tmr gt softball
when i cut sure very ugly
dun wan to go softball with my ugly face
haha!!
cause i thinking of cutting short my fringe
thinking onli
nt sure if i will
i realise that linh has cut short her fringe
she sae is fashionable
den why nt i try right??
haha
somemore my mama sae
there is still three more weeks to go
so ask me cut next week
den 2 more weeks for sch
and by the time
my hair will be alright
so i thinking of cutting next thurs

yesterdae there is sb trg
me, weixin and shilka
dun bare trg
cause trg will end next week
haha
we wan it longer
and we love no pressure trg
yupp..
haha
yesterdae trg is fun
nt alot of ppl go
but we enjoyed it
haha
at first we do fence batting
and we laugh laugh laugh
ltr wen to bb court
it is more fun
we bat here bat there
and even start singing
i gt an idea of playing the bamboo game
i see ard
and saw the dustbin truck
there is dust pan and broom
haha
i took that and we start playing
weee
grace was so pro..
she just like those high jumper
she can jump very high
haha
impressed all of us
haha!!
den we start singing
all kind of songs
haha..

trg ended very soon
we saw zhen
and we chit chat for awhile
decide to go out next week
must!
long time didnt go out with her le..

we went to eat
me, xin, grace and shilka
den ltr we played at the bb court
me and grace throw ball
and i accidentally hit weixin
oooppss
i'm sry my dear
haha
she was taking qi sheng's hp tt time
and when the ball hit her
she drop her phone
haha
qi sheng was there yelling
abt his phone
haha
but he was jk i can see
dun think i mam bad ok..
weixin is worst
she took revenge after tt
haha
we were playing
when we are snatching the ball
from grace and shilka
she step onto my shoes
i bang onto her and i fall!!
haha
but when i falling
i actually pulled her skirt
haha!!
cause i need balance
and wad???
she was laughing
funny hor weixin??
haha
but we do enjoy...
although me and xin both injuried
haha
i think xin's injuries is more serious den mine
haha
cause when she was defending grace
grace actually scratch her hand
and her hand have 1 big red scratch
haha
anyway it is fun...
ok i shall stop here le
cya!!

__SomEtimEs tHe gReaTesT haPpInEss
iS tHe bLiSs oF bEinG iGnOraNt
tO tHe fAcT__

well...
if gt see my previous blog
u shld know wad had happen
haha
i am so pissed off
so now come update again
hope nth goes wrong
haha..

i am back frm chalet
three daes
nt very long
it is short i must sae
but it is fun
but during tis short time
i realise that i miss my families
and they miss me too
haha
casue my mother helped me to bed
haha
dun anyhow think..
i know i am too old to hv that
haha
cause i dozed off at the sofa
and my mum wake me up
and hold me to bed
den my dad leh
he called home and asked
"ar min come back le mar"
didnt realise that
i am the one
answering the phone
haha..
for my brother
he let me hugged
when i came home
which he usually wont allow
haha..
my sis leh..
i called home at the sec dae
and she was on phone with me
for rather long
and she dun wanna put down
and when that call i am looking for my mother
haha...
but when came home
i aso missed the chalet
haha..

first dae..
we went bowling
but sth happen on the way there
daphne, me and weixin
was walking together
suddenly sth seems to explode at my ear there
and my left ear coudlnt hear anything
for a moment
but after daphne helped me massage
it is alright..
really give me a fright..
phew...
we went bowling
it is fun
we paired up
cause we are onli able
to book one lane..
we dun wan to play separately
so we paired up
i paired with weixin
hehee
and at first we are loosing
always at the back..
but soon we chase up a little
hehee..
and we caught up with
faridah and cass
when fard was there laughin at me
haha
i get a strike..
and i was soooo happy
haha
but i get into drain alot of times too..
haha..

after bowling..
we went back to the chalet..
surprisingly..
everyone was watching tong xin yuan
haha..
and we laugh together
and ate our dinner..
our dinner is kfc and pizza
cause it was raining
and we cant bbq..
so shao xing right?
haha..
but nvm it is fun..
next we went pong pong
and went out for a walk
after walking,
daphne, grace and shilka
were tire.
so they went back to the chalet
and catch some slp first
while we continue to hv our walk..
we went to arcade..
and played some game
and cass play para para..
we wan to go to the beach
but qi sheng dun allow
cause it is too dangerous..
we understand..
hehee..
soon we went back chalet too..
the three of them were sound asleep
we cant get the bed
and they sae wan to ton
at first we stayed in the guys room
and me and weixin gt cat fight
well..
i wanted to stop it
but xin was like crazy abt it
and she was screaming like siao
haha
till peilin they all came in
and we were chased out
cause that was the guy's room
and since we are nt sleeping
and the guys want to sleep
we shouldnt stay there
so we went to the balcony..
stay there
singing..
i took a cushion with me
and i almost fall asleep
everytime i was abt to doze off..
valentin and weixin
was there throwing pop corn at me
and i tell myself
i am nt sleeping
haha..
but every 3 mintues i actually dozed off..
haha..
till 5 plus..
the three of them finally wake up
so the rest of us went to fight for the bed
wa...
i am realli tire man...
i slp beside cass
and she was terribly noisy..
i cant slp
we were all asking her to shut up
but she was there making fun..
haha..
finally she slpt
and so do us...
but..
peilin wakes us up
and it is time for sun rise
omg..
i just fall asleep u know??
haha..
we went to the park
sit there..
waiting for sun rise
in the end??
nth came up..
haha..
we went back to the chalet
again
fight for the bed..
but it was sooo squeezy..
i cant slp at all..
so i went out
and went to the guys's room
they were all out at the living room
so i occupy one of their bed..
with weixin
while chye ning occupy another
and shirley junmei, shilka, pris and jass
occupy another..
the both room is ours..
soon hte time pass..
we wake up and went for escape..

ESCPAE!!
we get in..
play play play...
hmmm...
wad else???
something unpleasent happen too
but i dun wanna sae
cause is embarrassing
haha..
wad i think i shall sae is..
HAUNTED HOUSE!!
we get it..
haha..
grace and gang haven get in
they screamed!!
haha
grace, shilka, chyening, daphne
is didnt get in b4
the rest is we went to
the FIRST door before
haha..
we drag some guys in
they draged qi sheng in
and we dragged
marcus and dixon in..
haha..
marcus was leaving the way
while dixon stand at the back
i didnt really see wad is happen
casue i am covering my eyes
haha..
i tried to hold wan yee's hand
but scare i hold wrong hand
and hold the ghost's hand how???
haha..
but didnt
haha...
panasonic is fun..
but just watched the news
sae sth happen to it
2 gal actually fall frm there
omg..
lucky we were nt there that time..
phew..
haha..
at night..
there is bbq
i ate onli a litte.
1 chicken wing...
hahaha...
at night i think everyone slpt
we slp outside
i hv block nose
haiz..
chye ning sae someone snore
bt dunno who
she sae is me???
but weiixn and jun mei sae is nt
haha
but they said i have dream tok
and wad i sae??
i sae
"i love you!!"
haha..
stupid eh??
haha..

but overall..
chalet is fun...
very fun..
but peilin qi sheng they all
is leaving tis year..
nt sure if there will be another chalet
but i hope there is...
ok i shall end here..
hope nth goes wrong again!!
haha..
cya
-shimin

omg.. i am pissed off...
i update three tiems but everything
is gone!!!
pissed off!!
dun wan to update liao