i am suppose to be preparing for my next interviews in two days time when something strikes me. i came to realize that there's always this fear inside me that can never go away. never. i got no idea why. maybe everyone is afraid of something. when i came across the page i cant help it but picturing the moving scenes again through my mind. i wondered how i actually coped with it and manage to move along. i tried reading it again and i recalled how afraid i was whenever there is something new, praying hard that nothing comes like a stab right in my heart. i believe that's how phobia is formed.

i need to get over this fear.