before may arrives, i shall settle down to pen something so far. life hasnt been fantastic but at least better than the past few hectic months. nothing interesting, but just feel that things has changed so much. we cant deny that once certain things has moved a different direction, you cant expect it to turn back. perhaps it takes me more than numerous years to see that. or rather, all along seeing it and understanding it, seeing it with my bare eyes but decided to cover it with lies, and more lies. sometimes, the easiest lie is to cheat oneself, to give yourself excuses to run away and run over it. over rated myself to believe that i am different from any other people. that's why when coming to realize i am no different from any others, it hurt extremely bad. i guess the 2 weeks of March had been really bad enough to let me set awake to see the cruelty in one's heart. i hate to see the difference in you. we are always close so as we always understand each other's difference. i have to admit that i am difficult, but you always have your ways to get me managed. and i am, really intolerable. hate to admit that one day when we stop understanding each other's difference, what will happen? sometimes i would rather things remain like how it used to be, but rather than our distance jumping further each day.

where are you, my best friend?

why has blogger become like this?

若爱只剩诱惑,　只剩彼此忍受,
那就别再互相折磨, 因为我们都有错.

everyone needs family, a lover and at least one true friend to walk down their life with.
thanks for the blessing, i am given almost everything.
thank you for giving me so many great friends that i can rely on.

thank you for giving me YongZhen, Geena and Leiwin for the past 12 years to walk down all the joy and sorrow with me.
yesterday was an awesome night with the girls! bought food over to leiwin's place, laze around the living room, eating long john silver and kfc, catching up dramas, gossiping about the celebrities. move on to mahjong for less than an hour, jump off to the room and started with all those gossiping, comforting, sharing and laughing.
feels more like in the dramas, how girls gather around and start gossiping, laughing and comforting the crying ones.

i guess, that's what friends are truly for. t0 be there for you when you need them, to stand by your side even moment regardless you need them or not. always one phone call away, always give the right advices. may not speak, but always listen. may not go through everything with you, but always laugh and cry with you. may not be able to give you anything expensive, but always able to give you their priceless shoulders. they may make you cry and argue with you, but at the end of time, they will still give you a tap on your head telling you everything will be fine.

sweet confession,
i love you girls.

truly.

A truly abandoned blog.
Ending of 2011 has marked as one of the saddest period in my life ever since the last breakdown in 2005. Has officially taken a year break from university. Went through the toughest period, getting over it, standing up again. Special thanks to people who has walked through this period with me. Endless crying, refuse to get out of bed, as if the world will turn me down.
dont.stop.
the world dont stop for you. stand up, from where you fall.

There too many things happening for the past 6 months, lost of track on what one really want. Cant recall anything to really blog about. life is changing, everyone is moving on. things change, and you cant step behind. Friends are all heading into NS. clique are gonna be in soon as well.

turning 21 in last than a month time. party by the poolside. please let the god love me and dont pour on that special day.
want something really special on this unique day, but what?

want to blog that much.
but whenever stepping into this page, keying in a words seems to take in so much effort.
tire.

that's all.

byelovely.


hate the feeling of loosing one.
我爱上的你并不能代替他。

i want to blog.
but i am too tire to do so at this moment.

i will do it tomorrow.
very the good night everyone.

people always say be forwards looking, dun look back.
but who dont.
who dun miss the past when they were younger and happier?
had the best time for the past 20 years.
perfect life granting everything i ever wanted.
people always say, a decision made, and there it changes everything.
without going into nbps, i wouldnt have known 858 clique. without going opss i wouldnt get to know fsome, softballers and every other things that happened.
now, without going NTU, what will happen to me?
i guess this is a decision that is gonna affect my entire life,
but a twist in life doesnt always mean a bad.
i tried, i cant, i go.

i always hope for the better, and i know, i can, because its me.
life changes, and when priorities changes, value set, no other people can affect your decision.
had been hoping for the past few weeks that let this decision made be the best decision, not certain but what will happen next. but at least, i know, i am happier.
truly happier.

maybe this is the most important thing. isnt it?

Neglected blog once again. LOL.
back to after graduation. started working in UOB from April to July. and it had been a really awesome three months of work. best bosses, best mates. working environment in TPY UOB had win over CBD area such as raffles. shorter hours of traveling, better food, lesser crowd. made future plan to work there in future. hahahahhaha!

anyway, what's the best was the greatest friends knew in UOB.
hyejune, sharon, esther and emeline (:
sometimes, you need not spend to much effort to make friends around you, because when what meant to be, it will be. when you are meant to be friends, they come to you.



traveled for a two days one night down to malacca. HORRIBLE BUS TRIP FOR HOURS. but nevertheless, we spend a fruitful night over there though we didnt manage to visit the water park.we used swimming pool to replace it! hahahaha
night time arrived and we visited the famous joker street. joker street was great. malacca was much better than what i had imaged. crowded but peaceful.
nice scenery, nice food.







really missed them very badly.
cant wait for the korea trip next year! (:

misses girls!
promised our uni tour!